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This month’s free mp3 download from Love & Honesty is “Any Minute Now.”

 

 

How do I begin? How do I write a post at the New Year’s start, a post about a life’s end? I guess the only place to begin is at the beginning…

 

The phone rang. It was someone I choose not to associate with, and the call was to inform me of an accident. I heard a few details and little more, then got off the phone as quickly as I could. I sat alone, trying to process what I’d been told: my young, beautiful cousin had been in a tragic auto accident. She did not survive.

 

I just sat there. There were tears, but I don’t remember moving from the couch. I didn’t call anyone, or walk into another room for a tissue. I didn’t move. Until I did. And at that point, I reached for my guitar.

 

“Any Minute Now” is about my cousin. It is about the feelings of disbelief, the grief I felt after that phone call. It is incredibly personal, and yet I have no doubt it’s also exactly the way so many of us feel after losing a loved one. I still expect to see my cousin during family visits. I still imagine news of her life. I still don’t believe it.

 

It was with great hesitation that I included this song on Love & Honesty. I felt it was a bit out of place, which is why it’s the final track of the CD. The mere act of recording it was extremely challenging. I almost didn’t make it through. When my voice cracked during the final line near the song’s end, it was all I could do to keep it together. In fact, I failed miserably in my task: I broke down and couldn’t work any more that day.

 

Like I said, it’s incredibly personal. Thanks for letting me share it.