I’m learning. Really. And one of the things I learned recently was to give myself permission to step back from the macro and go micro every once in a while.
I have often become overwhelmed by all the details of every single thing that must be done/hasn’t been done/is going wrong/is going right/has everything to do with me/has nothing to do with me – and why? (Not a rhetorical question, by the way – I’d really like to know.) When I’ve stumbled down that particular dry well, I’ve struggled to regain any semblance of composure. Getting caught up in the big picture (meaning EVERYTHING), well, leaves no room for the the small picture. For the moment. For the here and now.
So I’m trying to be more present. I’m trying to be more cognizant. I’m trying to be.
And then there’s the flip-side, friends. You see, I’ve also learned recently to give myself permission to step back from the micro and go macro every once in a while.
I also often get so caught up in the minutiae of some tiny, little, matters-only-to-me crap – to the point of losing sight of the big picture – that I’m unable to just take a damned breath and feel it. It’s ridiculous, I tell you. And when I do that to myself (and make no mistake, y’all, I am solely responsible for those moments), I can barely open my eyes wide enough to see my way toward seeing my way. Over-focusing on what’s right in front of my face leaves me with absolutely no concept of the bigger picture. Of hope. Of dreams. Of faith.
So here’s the deal: it’s not too late for me. This old dog can still learn a few new-to-me tricks. And believe me when I tell you – if I can learn new tricks at this stage of the game, you can, too. We can all step back from the micro and go macro every now and then. And we can all turn away from the macro and go micro once in a while. And what does it all boil down to? What is the crux of this entire missive?
Be. Just be.
I’m still learning.